Friday, May 18, 2012

Writer's block or There's a Monkey on my Back

What's writer's block?

Well, some people have this idea that there's no such thing as writer's block. They claim that it proves that you've nothing to say, that's why you can't put the words onto the page.

Others find that it's very real, it's the demon of the white blank page - be it paper or a computer screen. It's very, very real to them.

You might think you know EXACTLY what you want to write, but as soon as that evil white screen appears, your mind suddenly goes completely blank. And I'm not talking about Zen meditation  stare-at-the-wall-enlightenment-hits kind of blank.

I'm talking about sweat trickling down the back of your neck, anguish, panic and suffering kind of blank. The tighter the deadline, the worse it's going to be and writer's block has you paralysed.

Now, can you figure out what might possibly be causing this horrible spell of paralyzing speechlessness?

The answer is in it's symptoms: FEAR!
You're terrified of that blank page. You are terrified you have absolutely nothing of value to say. You are frightened of looking a fool. You're afraid of the fear, that is writer's block itself!

It doesn't matter if you've done a decade of research. That all you've left to do is string sentences, which you can repeat in your sleep, together into coherent paragraphs. Writer's block can strike anyone at any time. Based in fear, it raises our doubts about our own self-worth, but it's sneaky.

It's writer's block, after all, so it doesn't just come and let you know what it is. No, it makes you feel like an idiot who just had your frontal lobes removed. If you dare to put words onto a page or offer them to the greater world, you're certain they would come out as complete gibberish!

Let's try and be rational with this irrational demon. Let's make a list of what might possibly be beneath this frustrating and terrifying condition.

1. Perfectionism. You must absolutely produce a masterpiece of literature straight off in the first draft. Otherwise, you qualify as a complete failure.

2. Editing instead of composing. There's your editor monkey sitting on your back, looking over your shoulder. Soon as you type anything it's yelling "No, not that, that's wrong! That's stupid!"
Correct correct correct correct - right?

3. Self-consciousness. How can you think, let alone write, when all you can manage to do is pry the fingers of fear away from your throat, so you can get a few shallow breaths?
You're not focused on what you need to write, your focusing on trying to get air!

4. Can't get started. It's always the first sentence that's the hardest. As writers, we all know how EXTREMELY important the first sentence is. It must be brilliant! It must be unique! It must hook your reader's from the start! There's no way we can get into writing the piece until we get past this impossible first sentence.

5. Shattered concentration.
You're cat is sick. Your young children are hungry and need a snack. Your phone won't stop ringing. Your electricity could be turned off any second. Your waiting for the mail, but it's late. You have a dinner party to plan for your in-laws, this weekend! You . . .
Need I say more?
How can you possibly concentrate with all this mental clutter?

6. Procrastination. It's your favorite hobby. It's your soul mate. It's the reason you've knitted 60 different sweaters or made 30 bookcases in your garage workshop. It's the reason you never run out of Brie.
FACE IT!  IT'S ONE OF THE REASONS YOU HAVE WRITER'S BLOCK!

Overcome Writer's Block or How to Cage that Monkey!

Okay. There's a  herd of you running away from this article as fast as you can. I can hear you. "Absurd!" you huff. "Never in a million years!" you fume. Writer's block is absolutely, undeniably, scientifically proven to be impossible to overcome.

Oh, just get over it! Well, I guess it's not that easy. So try to sit down for just a few minutes and listen. Just listen. Think you can stick around for that? You don't have to actually write a single word.

Ah, there now. That cloud of dust is starting to settle. Now, stay seated and don't get spooked again. Now, I'm telling you that Write's Block or the fear, can be overcome. Stay with me now. Don't listen to all those whiners that don't want to fix this problem. Writer's Block has been their crutch for so long, their excuse for not being a writer, it's why they don't write!

Now pay attention, there are ways to trick this nasty demon. You just have to pick one or
pick several  Give them a try. Soon, before you even have a chance for your heartbeat to accelerate, guess what? You're writing.

Here are some tried and true methods of overcoming writer's block:

1. Be prepared. The only thing to fear is fear itself. (I know, that's a cliche, but as soon as you start writing, feel free to improve on it.)
If you spend some time mulling over your project before you, thinking of it's structure, what needs to be done and how first. When you actually sit down to write, you may be able to circumvent the worst of the crippling panic.

2. Forget perfectionism. No one ever writes a masterpiece in the first draft. Don't put any
expectations on your writing at all! In fact, tell yourself you're going to write absolute garbage, and then give yourself permission to happily stink up your writing room.

3. Compose instead of editing. Never, never write your first draft with your editor monkey allowed to sit on your back looking over your shoulder, making snide editorial comments. Composing is a magical process. It surpasses the conscious mind by galaxies.
It's even incomprehensible to the conscious, editorial, monkey.
So prepare an ambush.
Sit down at your computer or your desk. Take a deep breath and blow out all your thoughts. Let your finger hover over your keyboard or pick up your pen.
And then pull a fake: appear to be about to begin to write, but instead, using your thumb and index finger of your dominant hand, flick that little annoying ugly monkey back into it's barrel of nitpicking where it came from.
Then jump in quickly! Write, scribble, scream, howl, let everything loose, as long as you do it with a pen or your computer keyboard.

4. Forget the first sentence. You can sweat over that all-important one-liner when you've finished your piece. Skip it!
Go for the middle or even the end. Start wherever you can. Chances are, when you read it
over, the first line will be blinking its little neon lights right at you from the depths of your composition.

5. Concentration. This is a hard one. Life throws us so many curve balls. How about thinking about your writing time as a little vacation from all those annoying worries.
Banish them!
Create a space, perhaps even a physical one, where nothing exists except the single present moment. If one of those irritating worries starts to get by you, stomp on it like you would an
ugly bug!

(Having a place, even a walk-in closet or a spare room with a lock, can offer you some distance. Have someone take the duties of watching young ones, answering the phone and dealing with all that for a half hour or an hour. Ask a teen if you've got a reliable, mature one that can handle the job. Then negotiate a trade for the service. Every little bit helps.)

6. Stop procrastinating. Write an outline. Keep your research notes within sight. Use someone else's writing to get going. Babble incoherently on paper or on the computer if you have to. Put a desktop image on your computer to urge you to start writing. Whatever it takes!

Just do it! (I know, I stole that line from somewhere?).
Tack up anything that could possibly help you to get going: notes, outlines, pictures of your
grandmother. Put the cookie you will be allowed to eat when you finish your first draft within sight. But make sure it's out of reach.
Then pick up the same type of writing that you need to write, and read it. Then read it again. Soon, trust me, the fear will slowly fade away. As soon as it does, grab your keyboard and get
writing!

So now you've some tools on hand, take a deep breath and get going! There's writing to be done and YOU can do it!



Take care and Carpe Diem!



Thursday, May 17, 2012

Time to Get Moving Forward

Time to check things off my To-do list

Things are still really hectic around here - but I've got to start getting my To-do list shortened. It's gotten so long, it's got to be virtually down the steps and out the door now!
So I've got to start getting organized.
Rats, I hate getting organized! I despise Spring Cleaning! Why does everything start with getting things in order. I know that it's easier to find things and all that after all that work. It's just that I'm really not into doing it. Yes, I'm a procrastinator!

But I also found out I work pretty good under pressure too. Don't like it, but I can really get stuff done! Just don't want to get penned into that kind of situation often. I do have to admit that when I've got things set up, it all does go faster and smoother.

Okay, I'll do it! If I don't, that nagging little voice will drive me crazy till I do. I'd rather just get it over with.
So, first thing I need to start with is getting all the little things out of the way. Stuff that won't take too long and that will be done in a snap. That should take care of quite a few of those nasty little tasks on my list. Of course, those pests tend to be reoccurring types, which means I'll have to do them again later too.

Well, gotta start someplace, right?

Now, what's next... Some medium tasks, that will cut down of a good handful or two. But they are a bit more to deal with. Let's see, maybe some of them can be combined or can be put aside for later. I know, I'm not supposed to be kicking the can down the road... but some things may just have to wait.

Now, one thing that should be easy enough is blogging on this site. I don't see why I can't do that more than I have been. A few posts a few times a week shouldn't be too hard. I'll just have to give it a try. Of course, I need to also start working on the other pages on my site. Now that won't take too long IF I get things organized. Dang it, I have to admit, that it would make things a lot easier if I did.

Well, if I take each task, get everything planned and set up, then finish it off, I'll be able to get it off the list. If I just focus on one step at a time and carry it out till the end, that should make it all go faster. I really need to stop hopping online to look something up and get distracted by all the other things I would like to do online. That really cuts into the time I have to finish up things.

Boy, that's going to be hard. I'm such a news hound! I love checking out all the current happenings. Oh, that might be where all my time is going. So, how can I keep current and still stay on task? Maybe I should set a day that I go and catch up on all the news in a chunk and then that will free up the time for other things  I need to do. Well, it would be worth a try, I really need to get a lot of things done. Guess I'll give that a chance so I can get more things finished.

Time for me to get things started. You know, it's not so bad really. I'm starting to look forward to getting things straightened up and make things easier to plan out. I really like the feeling of being in control more of all this stuff I have to do. If I take it one step at a time, it doesn't look so impossible anymore.

Hope that everyone out there has a great weekend coming up and that you're moving forward towards all your goals.

Take care and Carpe Diem!

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Wow! It's been a while... my bad.

Okay, haven't been in here posting much - why? Life.
Simple and direct, but the most messy and busy place that we deal with every day.
So here's a little bit that's been going on that's been keeping me rather busy, stressed and frustrated.

First is the fact my income has been falling, it's been going down since 2009 when my web business went down. I've been trying to recoup the funds I lost due to children growing up and yet I still need that money to keep the bills paid. So I've done freelance work, online marketing and metal scrapping, everything we could do to get up the money.

Funny thing about earning the same money that I was given as a benefit, it seems that this money is counted against me. The disability I get was reduced because I was now earning that $350 a month, though I didn't always make that much, I now lost a portion of my deposit. This was upsetting and frustrating, because I now had to make more money to replace the funds that I was now losing from disability. That was making things even more difficult than before.

Now some years back I tried to get a modification done on my mortgage. I spent almost a year sending documents back and forth with the servicing company. It was a stressful, frustrating and upsetting situation. Finally, I got a response, but it was disappointing. They told me that they didn't have permission to do a modification on my loan. Well, that seemed simple enough to fix - get permission.
Well, they tried and later told me that the holders of my mortgage had chosen to not participate in the "Make Homes Affordable" program. These people decided to not help me to make it easier to pay my mortgage. Now I'm not underwater on my note, if fact, I've been lucky that way since there isn't that great a neighborhood to keep my home assessment up. The reason that my mortgage is so difficult to keep up is that I'm dealing with a 10.84% APR - which is nuts, considering the current rates.

I mentioned this because I was contacted just a few weeks ago. It seems that my escrow has a shortage, so my payment is going to be increased to cover the higher taxes and insurance on my account. So now I'm having to pay even more, while I'm losing more monthly income. This has not been something easy to deal with and I've been very busy trying to find a fix for this problem. So far I'm not finding a lot of answers or options to help.

The last thing that's been keeping me busy and taking up my time is the fact that I'm writing again. I've been working on a few projects that I'm in the middle of getting published. I've a mystery that is in the end stages, a fantasy that I've just started & I'm taking some online classes. I've been checking out software, trying to find some tools to help me out and keep things on track. I've also a poetry book that still needs a few illustrations before it's done. Researching the various options that are available for publishing and of course there's my main website that I need to put together also. I'm finding that branding and marketing are part of the publishing end - something I'm not too good at right now. But I do know some people that are great at this sort of thing, which I'll be calling on them to help me.

So this is the larger areas in life that have been causing some hiccups and speed bumps on my road. But these are far from the only things that have been keeping me tangled up and unable to get moving. Health issues, transportation, being able to get things done when dealing with pain isn't easy. Not having transportation is a big issue - can't get out shopping, get to doctor appointments, can't get to therapy. It stinks. There's nothing worse than being home bound - it's like being in a kind of prison because you can't go whenever you want. Especially if your disabled and mobility is an issue. That is something that can make life a real nightmare - I deal with all this daily.

Well, I will be trying to get in here more and more to keep this updated. I will have to do it tricky, which means I'm going to write posts whenever I can and send it to my blog. Then it will update my blog with those posts. I've found a nice little program that will do that for me and it's going to be a great way for me to start keeping things updated easier.

So until I get the next post done - take care and grab hold of life and try to make it what you want it to be.
Keep moving forward!
Carpe Diem!